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8/12/2022 Making a few changes, so it may be a mess for a little while longer. Hang tight, progress is on the way!

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Behold, stock photography images!

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There are many people I don't know in this image

The following pictures came installed when I tried a new plugin. I don't know where this is, but it looks like a nice city.

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I am not sure who this person is but I hope she is doing well. And she got paid for her image to be used!

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New!

Trying a new theme!

Works in progress

Welcome back to my little corner. Today’s theme is “works in progress”! And this time it’s not a vague philosophical post, it’s about my literal works in progress.

I like projects. I like planning, preparing, and starting. BUT sometimes the perfectionism gets in the way and if it’s not perfect (and let’s face it, starting something new it’s probably NOT gonna be) it can be abandoned.

I started something small a few months ago that I call – something not G rated so I will edit myself and call it – “decent enough cleaning”. Instead of worrying if I get every little spot for something, I do a decent enough job. I can come back tomorrow or later that day and finish it. It’s helped TREMENDOUSLY with my perfectionistic tendencies and I notice that it’s really sufficient.

I saw an article recently stating that we humans like to see immediate results, immediate gratification, that “before and after” shot – but we have a tendency to ignore or even dislike incremental progress. (BTW this was based on a scientific study so you may be saying “of course, duh, common sense” but hey – let me get my inspiration. Ha!)

I decided to challenge my “monkey/dopamine addicted” mind and go IT’S TIME TO CHEER FOR THE LITTLE STEPS. Not just acknowledge them but actively get excited. Show them off. Why the heck not? Isn’t there enough bad in the world? We can’t change everything, there will be bad, but grab that good stuff whenever and wherever possible!

Okay, so I went a little philosophical, but here is I promise some actual works in progress:

RECIPE BOOK

I have been collecting recipes and translating Japanese recipes for a while now. I was using my phone to read the recipes but during cooking I can’t always easily get back to my phone. I much prefer paper recipes, so I decided to print out the recipes I will use again.

I bought a notebook from Muji and sat down and punch holes and organized! And for fun, I will draw some cute illustrations for each section. I might put on stickers because I flipping love me some stickers.

DOES THIS NOT SPARK JOY??

I read Marie Kondo’s book a few years back and thought it was a cool concept. I haven’t done the full method because I am employing, ahem, “decent enough” but I put some clothes that don’t exactly spark joy away for now. I will come back to them in cooler weather and see if I will wear them again. If not, it will be time to recycle.

Organizing using “zero waste”/”already have” items

Been working on replacing storage containers with glass containers, but I have accumulated a pile of (sorry) plastic ones. Based on some cool YouTube videos and ideas from a friend, I am using them to make little “sort boxes” using things I already have. I also learned how to re-use boxes to make organizers too!

Hello again Japanese study

Taking classes again. Please ask me how well it goes with a 1 year old!
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These are only a small handful of projects I have right now. The next project I will try is adding pictures to my blog posts!

What projects do you have? Feel free to share!


Putting the pieces back together

Hello, dear reader. It’s been such a long time, hasn’t it? How have you been?

Over here is – a lot. Good, bad, ecstatic, miserable, exciting, boring – it seems that we’ve run the gamut in our little corner of the world. Motherhood is such a constellation of emotions, feelings, healing – not to mention isolation, confusion, joy, chaos, and peace.

You don’t realize when you are pregnant that once your little one is ready to come into the world as a new life and they separate from your body that you aren’t the same person.

I read that birth and motherhood causes visual changes to the structure of the brain. After over a year of experiencing motherhood – yes, I can feel it. Not just the changes but the push and pull of the different expectations of it all.

It feels like a puzzle. That you have components of your previous self and new pieces to add. You have been shattered from the previous picture and you now have to reassemble yourself with the new pieces to create a new picture.

And – there isn’t always a lot of help.

Giving birth is such a profound, momentous, amazing, and dangerous experience. While I won’t say that giving birth was the greatest experience of my life I will say that it was one of the most empowering – one that required a lot of strength and endurance since I gave birth without the physical support of my husband, family, or friends.

And to add, I feel it must be the case for everyone who gives birth – both vaginally AND cesarean. I don’t imply that I am in any way special because of my circumstances, they were what they were and not the choice I would have made. But sometimes we aren’t always given choices for life, are we? I digress. Anyways – to those who have given birth you deserve medals and also free housework and food for a least the first couple of years and heck, to those who haven’t or won’t give birth you deserve lots of things too. I really need to get this post back on track.

I truly find it amazing that women are still considered “inferior” and that there aren’t more women in leadership roles when we are essentially the force that brings all human life into the world. How utterly confusing when all the process leading up to and after (because once you have a baby your body is STILL changing!) is so much WORK. It’s not always a beautiful, effortless, “natural” event. In fact, I had to get induced! I have friends who were sick almost their entire pregnancies. Friends who carried multiple babies. How strange – to bring forth from our bodies the entire human race but to be considered worth less than about half of it. (Disclaimer – not everyone, not all cultures, not everywhere but PLENTY enough.)

As you can see, I’ve had time – sometimes I feel TOO much time – to be with my thoughts. I made the choice to be the stay at home caretaker for our child during the first few years of their life – something I decided I would do if I ever had children. (And side note – I feel that it’s a huge privilege I was able to choose because not everyone can). It brings a lot of joy but it’s basically a 24/7 job with no set meal breaks, no salary, and sometimes (it feels) limited respect. It’s also much more difficult when you don’t have a local physical support system and a language barrier.

I chose to stay home because I want my child to be bilingual and to understand both English and Japanese at a fluent level. Being physically with my little one and talking to her and interacting and playing with her will help with her English fluency. That’s super important to me because she will most likely go to a Japanese nursery school. She’ll be immersed with other children and will pick up Japanese rapidly. In a way, I feel like my job is part mother and teacher (and chef, and cleaner, and entertainer, and dancer, and…)

There’s so much sorting and piecing myself back together to do. I don’t think it will truly be completed. And – I am okay with that. We all learn and continue to grow throughout our whole lives, adjusting to the new. It’s always changing isn’t it?

So, that’s about where I am right now. I think maybe I’ve put a few more pieces together just writing and accomplishing a new blog. Opening up about my life a little – hopefully giving a little picture of the good, bad, complicated, and interesting chaos that motherhood is. That even though it’s a lot and I’m being honest it’s not all sunshine and roses, neither is it misery and dirty diapers. I’m pretty content with it all. And I am pretty flipping proud of that.

I will continue to try to update here. Even if it’s just sharing some personal thoughts, although I really hope to post something mildly educational/interesting in the near future!



Please send me good vibes as I try to work on some new projects! I’ll send some back for you as well.




Break time

Hi! It’s been a while.

I am afraid it will be a bit longer before I write again too, so just popping in to let you know that!

Both our little friend and me are doing well, so no need to worry!

I will hopefully be back sooner rather than later. In the meanwhile, please take care and be well!

-Heather