I wasn’t sure when to announce this. Honestly, I thought about it a long time – whether to wait longer or just not say anything at all. 

But, then I decided that perhaps it’s time. I need lots of strength and support. I’ve been relying on some wonderful people during the past few weeks, but I feel like there are lots of other people who might want to give me strength too. 

So, here’s a big leap for me. 

I am 12 weeks pregnant. 

I guess this is considered a “rainbow pregnancy” – which will hopefully result in a healthy “rainbow baby.” A rainbow baby is one born after having a miscarriage. 

Last year, I had a miscarriage. Then, in February I was treated for an ectopic with a healing time that ended up lasting quite a lot longer than I expected. I’ve written about these experiences but I’m holding on to releasing them until I feel ready. But what I want you to know right now is that I am truly grateful and thankful for these experiences and I am not sad. I’ve not lost but instead I gained so much, including strength and love. 

The difficult thing about being pregnant after going through miscarriages (which, also I really hate that term. It really seems to imply that the woman did something wrong, whereas the truth is that miscarriage is usually caused by chromosomal anomalies and there’s nothing you can do. And it happens to so many women! But I digress.) is that there’s a lot of fear. Because I didn’t get a chance to get anything analyzed I didn’t know what happened. Plus, deep down I knew that what I did wouldn’t matter if a miscarriage was meant to happen but I wanted the illusion of somehow having control. Being pregnant after miscarriage is a fearful hope. I want to look forward to the future, but I don’t know what the future will hold. Because I know that things can change in an instant. 

The past few weeks of “tsuwari” or morning sickness were so awful. Exhaustion, food aversions, mood swings, anxiety… Oh, and we are in the midst of a pandemic too? These past few weeks were NOT always easy. But I am thankful to my wonderful Yoshi, family, and friends who helped support me to make it through. 

And not to worry – there truly have been many wonderful, bright moments too. (If you know me, you know I am usually more upbeat than not! So I promise I wasn’t a huge moping exhausted mess the whole time!)

On Saturday I had my 12 week scan. Our new little friend is doing well, developing normally, and is super active and twisting and somersaulting and waving its arms like it just don’t care. Well, I mean I don’t think the proper brain cells are developed yet to not even care but at my 8 week scan our little friend looked like it was doing a dj hand wave so maybe? 

I’m not gonna do a cute announcement. As someone who experienced prior issues with pregnancy, this isn’t how I am choosing to tell everyone. 

Instead, I want you to celebrate this milestone with us. We’ve made it to 12 weeks!!! To me, it’s absolutely amazing. 

So please, celebrate with Yoshi and me and what we have now! 

I’ll report in time to time with updates, hopefully good and happy progress ones. 

Thanks in advance for your love and support. I will do my best to work hard on being relaxed, healthy, and helping our new little friend grow! 





Gina Posted on1:06 pm - November 15, 2020


Over here there is a giant wave of love and support coming from America. Don’t be alarmed, America is not suddenly a pod person, we are all just focused on loving and supporting you instead of our usual nonsense.

You are brave, and strong, and wonderful, and your sister is proud to bear that title. Sister.

Go lil friend! Shake it like Sistar!!

    Heather Posted on1:32 pm - November 15, 2020

    Thank you so much. I’m so proud to be your sister too!!!!!

Darth Posted on2:01 pm - November 15, 2020

We are so happy for y’all. You know that we love y’all so much already.
Love Darth & Phoo

    Heather Posted on12:29 pm - November 16, 2020

    Love you so much too <3

Corey Posted on2:03 pm - November 16, 2020

Congratulations to you and Yoshi!
Sending you so much love and I hope the rest of your pregnancy is as normal as normal can be.

    Heather Posted on9:08 am - November 17, 2020

    Thank you so so so much! Your message means a lot. Sending you lots of love back!

Amanda Posted on5:36 pm - November 16, 2020

Congratulations! My oldest is a rainbow baby. I am glad you two are doing well.

    Heather Posted on9:10 am - November 17, 2020

    Hi! Thank you so much for your message. And thank you for sharing with me. <3

    I'm sending you lots of love!

    Heather Posted on9:25 am - November 17, 2020

    I also wanted to add that if you ever want to share your experience with me, I am happy to listen. And if not, that is okay too <3

Angela Blizzard Posted on7:31 pm - November 16, 2020

I am proud of you for sharing on so many levels. Congrats!!! I am praying for a smooth rest of your pregnancy and beyond. I had a miscarriage between my two girls and it is still one of the hardest things I have ever experienced. It is an experience like no other, and I admire your perspective on looking and learning beyond the loss.

    Heather Posted on9:23 am - November 17, 2020

    Thank you so much for your message <3

    It was difficult for me to write this - so thank you for what you wrote. It means so much. I am glad I was able to share it. Thank you so much for sharing your experience too.

    I wish I could write more, but all I am able to do right now is send lots of love back to you. Someday, let's chat - if you want to talk about your experience more I am more than happy to listen. If not, that's okay too. Everyone works through this in their own way. I'm so beyond happy you have your two girls. Give them an extra giant hug from me 🙂

Carrie Posted on2:25 pm - December 1, 2020

Heather I am so happy for you and Yoshi! You are such a beautiful soul and you deserve all of the best. Miss seeing you, but now that I’ve found your page, I hopefully will keep up with you more. I love your writing. You are such an inspiration to me – and I know you will be an amazing mom. Keep that beautiful smile and lovely spirit.

    Heather Posted on12:42 am - December 5, 2020

    Thank you so so much for this beautiful message. You are an inspiration to me as well! You are a wonderful person and a fantastic mom and I’m so glad to know you. Thank you <3

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